Hella Hold'em

Welp... Party whooped my ass tonight. My flopped nut straight got sucked out by a river-heart flush. My pocket 7's-turned-trips on the flop fell victim to 4 hearts on board. Pocket queens got beat by a heart flush, and pocket Aces also fell to a heart flush.

Getting NO love from Party tonight.

So little love in fact that I've managed to run my meager little $75 on Party (remember, the "free money") down to zero this week. I'd reload, but I just used every red cent to my name to book my Vegas trip in March. (I booked it tonight - it's final! March 11-14th).

I logged off Party with that feeling you just DON'T want to have: the I-hate-poker, how-come-only-I-get-sucked-out-on, crybaby feeling.

I stared at my computer for a few minutes, and then realized something. I got sucked out on. That's all. I'm not the worst poker player that has ever lived. The Aces - well, my fault; I was trying to play sneaky and limp in with them. Shoulda never done that. (I'd gotten out of that habit months ago - not sure what made me do it this time). So that was my fault. The other beats - not much I could do. I'd bet them aggressively (pot-sized or more) and re-raised when someone bet them ahead of me to protect from the flush draw. The draws played, and hit. What can ya do? I'd say I should have bet more, but I don't think that'd have made a difference in these particular cases.

Instead of beating myself up in gloom and doom, I will just take it for what it was: bad luck. Suck outs. They happen. They sting. But instead of getting all wrapped up in negative self talk and bemoaning how the poker gods hate me, how about this:

I suck up the suck outs and just move on.

Hmmm. Novel idea.

I went back to the table with my Empire alter-ego, where I now sit, and am doing OK so far. Recoup a little bit, and then call it a night. That's my plan. We'll see how it goes....

** Update ** It went well.... got tonight's $40 bucks back in all of 50 minutes. I guess I'll just be playing from the Empire skin for a while.... incognito mwahahaha!